Monday 21 November 2011

"I guess not..."

That rainbow lied.  It told me that it was going to be a good week, and it lied.
Well, for the first part of the week, it was right; my days were grand!  But for the second part of the week, not so...
You see, I had a huge project to do on Napoleon Bonaparte that week, and I really seemed to let the workload get to me.  My judgement of the situation was off, and I didn't assess things properly.  This stress felt as though it was fueling something in me, perhaps it was my determination to get things done, but it overcame reality and blinded me from seeing the truth.  I had convinced myself of that project being the most important thing in the world for me to have done, and nothing else seemed to even matter.
As this happened though, I began to blame myself for the things that happened around me, and then,  I started to accuse the things around me for causing my own personal troubles.
I even started to blame the 3DS for lowering my level of productivity, yet, how can a machine ever know the difference anyhow?  "I'm sorry 3DS... (sobbed)" :)

Anyhow, I was really lost with that one assignment, and really wanted to please my teacher by having it handed in on time; it had been two years since I had her as a teacher, and I really wanted to show her how much I had grown, but that decision ending up costing me a whole lot of other problems in the end.  I went all out that one Thursday night, neglecting to do any of my other schoolwork, and maxing out on history and running on very little sleep from the night before.  BAD DECISION.  I became to tired to finish it, and had a Healthy Living & Nutrition test the next day that I was suppose to have studied for, but hadn't because it was too much for me to take in that late at night.  I had failed...

So, here I was, trapped in my own little hole I dug for myself.  What could I possibly do to get myself out of this predicament?  I wrote a letter; one to my history teacher.  Without knowing where or how to start, I wrote a letter that seemed to derive from the deepest parts of my mind where the answers to all life's toughest questions lay.  As I wrote, I seemed to pore the words out.  I didn't think, I just typed; typing without thought.  And in the end, I had written down the equation and solution for all my homework problems!  It was long, very long.  The computer's clock was reading 2am by the time I was finished, but I was happy the moment that I hit send.  I knew what it was I needed to do now to prevent that sort of thing from happening again.

I stayed home the next day, needless to say.  But, I awoke with a much different attitude towards life.  I noticed the puffs of fog whisking up the side of my house, and decided to go out walking in the mist, seeking the simple beauty and quietness of the world.  It felt good; everything was nice and swell.  I felt better~
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These posts were first thought up a month ago, and I feel like I'm jumping all over the place with them, but it felt good to let them out.  It is pretty neat though, to go back and look at how my mood warped and changed within the context of a couple of weeks.  I am really finding this to be a very defining year in my life, and I am witnessing changes in myself and in my level of comfort and attitude towards certain things, that I could only have hoped to achieved when I thought about them last year.
This will be the last post in the series I did on Procrastination, Schoolwork, and my 3DS and from now on my focus is going to shift to more import things that may interest you,
Such as:
My Comic (Knights of Mamus'sa), the various Sketches and Artwork that I do, and simple tales from my life in general.

[No more sob-stories, I PROMISE!!!!!]

As I was reviewing my last post, I noticed that the paragraph stating the fact that I am making an effort to tighten the belt on on my blog posts to be a lie, and thus I feel the need to reword that to you:
"I am not bringing an end to all lengthy posts, I am trying to eliminate the amount of wordy posts I make."
There, that feels more correct. (My last post was just as long as any other post I made, so it kind of was defeating the purpose of having mentioned that.) But, there is a strong difference between a longer post and one that is wordy.

Oh, I almost forgot! I got my first comment this weekend! ^-^ ~"Yays!"
Here is what it says: 





Anonymous said...
very interesting content. Keep up the good work!

I also feel really bad for not having posted anything about my comic for the last little bit, so I just felt it was right to give you guys this to feast on:

Her name is Éneil (That's 'Ay-NEE-ul' with a French e accent aigu, or just 'Awn-yell & EE-neel' if you're English and don't like pronouncing things any other way.) :p  You are going to see her first introduced in my little legend/prologue thing I am doing now, and her importance will become much greater as the main story progresses and evolves.  

Good news! (not that you'd really care, but...) I started learning some German this week! Wanna' hear...?  Oh, yeah, forgot... Ahh, the limitations of my currant blog are so grand~  It just means that I have that to look forward to in the future- I mean, with my YouTube and all.  That is, if I actually do get to make it to YouTube? Which I know I will.  All in good time, Len, all in good time.

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